Assalamualaikum dear bloggers ,
Malam tadi , aku memang tak dapat tido . Kalih kiri , kalih kanan , try imagine anything , tapi still tak boleh tido . And I decide to open up facebook balik , read up some news , so that I can get sleepy . Seriously , jealous tengok Che'Pa kat katil sebelah ni haa tido nyenyak . I wish I was her yang sedang tido sambil tersenyum tu . And when I read my friends post at facebook , tiba-tiba terdetik kat hati nak scroll down post yang family aku tulis . And I see my beloved abah punye post . Entry yang ade kat blog my dad , he share it at facebook . And the stories begin . Tajuk entry tu 'Pesanan buat anak-anakku' . Baca je tajuk tu , my heart feels semacam . And I dont really like when I feel this 'semacam' feeling . Ape yang abah tulis , really makes me cry . A fact , I cry a lots when read that post . Menangis yang non-stop . I cant stop my sad feeling from being exposed when I read that pesanan yang abah pesan dalam blog . Really makes me 'muhasabah diri' for what did I actually do for my own life , for my own family , and for my own 'masyarakat sekeliling' including you , yang tengah bace post ni . Yeah , both of my parents still alive , and I'm sooo bersyukur for that . Seriously I cant think what would I will do if I lose them . They're the MOST important people in my life yang aku paling sayang after Allah and Rasulullah S.A.W . And aku sanggup gadaikan nyawa aku untuk dorang . Seriously aku tak tipu . If my parents can say that yang dorang will do anything including sanggup hilang nyawa demi nak buat anak-anak mereka termasuk aku bahagia . And I'm proudly said that aku pon sanggup hilang nyawa demi mak abah yang aku sangat sayangi . Yes , I'll do it ! Aku menangis teresak-esak , taktau what to do . Rasa macam nak terbang balik ke Puncak Alam , so that I can hugs and say my love to both of them . I really do LOVE MY PARENTS ! But its only a wish right . Facts yang aku ade kelas hari ni dan esok , hari jumaat yang merupakan hari yang tade kuliah , tiba-tiba lecturer nak buat kelas ganti , hari sabtu ahad , ade LDK for budak kej.letrik and hotels at this campus buat aku rase macam nak lelah tiba-tiba . When I said for myself to calm down and wipe out my sad tears , I know its not gonna be work . And it makes me decide to pergi ambik Whudhuk and do Solat Sunat Hajat and recite surah Yaasin in AlQuran , so that I can be a bit okay then . Yeah , I'm a bit more okay after that , but , when I'm here suara mak abah on phone time azan suboh kejap tadi really make my tears come back . Now , rasa okay sikit . Aku tak malu nak teriak kat the whole world yang AKU BANGGA JADI ANAK ABAH DAN MAK ! I'M PROUD TO BE ONE OF YOUR DAUGHTER ! Even though I'm not mendengar kata sangat , but still I know yang both of mak abah do proud of me and my siblings . MAK , ABAH , orang SAYANG SANGAT kat both of you . And I'm promise that I'll never let your both down . I'll finished up my studies here , and make mak abah become more proud of me . Ameen , InsyaAllah . Hope that I can fulfill that words promises .
